Heavy Hearted

Had a very eventful day today at my moms place in Ewa Beach. She has been sick for the past couple months and as of late it has been getting worse. Because my father was in the military she has been going to Tripler all her life and as of late she has been going there only to be getting worse. Now my brother has set her up with his doctor in Waipahu. Her appointment is set for Wednesday April 4, 2012. I pray that she gets better soon. We have had our differences but as of late I have been coming around and accepting the fact that all my mom is doing is being a mom. I have always given her a bad time and until this day I will start to be a very loving son. Even thou I was never raised by her, I will do what I know Heavenly Father would want me to do and that is to Love and Honor thy parents. And I am trying my best to do just that. Before I left my moms house today we had a heart felt talk. She told me that she is not ready to die yet, she wants to see me get married, she wants to see my older brother purchase his own house, she wants to see her 2 great grandkids grow up. My mother is not afraid to die but theres so much that she wants to do before it is her time to go. My mom lives her life to its fullest day in and day out and there is not a day that goes by that she tries her best to do what she can, while she can , when she can. I have learned alot from her and I am glad to call her my mother. There were days where I hated her and thats just my honest opinion. But Imma step back and just enjoy her presence each moment I have.